So while life has been grand and things have plucked up since I stopped talking to my family, there has been a change in the air. While I still don't talk to, my Mother or my Grandmother things are slowly on the mend with my Sister. My little Sister just had her baby on the 16th of June which in Irony is also Fathers Day. It was the weirdest thing going to the hospital to see my new little Nephew and seeing my little sister holding this little baby in her arms. In all honesty I really didn't think i would see this site till i was in my late 40's.
I just hit home that my siblings are getting older and getting married and having babies, just like me. I used to look at my siblings and still see the grubby little kids that i used to get into fights with and clean up if the fell and babysit. Now they are adults all grown up, I only saw myself being the one growing up and having a family and having an adult life. It's all kinda scary really. My little brother even has a girlfriend now, something i also didn't expect for awhile. One can say i guess that I'm embracing the change that is in the air and that I'm open for things to continue to get better with my sister.
Despite how much my family drives me completely crazy, and frankly does not understand me or truly know me at all. I still love them. I may have an underline hatred for them all but my love for them is a tad stronger. I will however maintain my distance and keep them at arms length, I will have a relationship with them but it will be on my terms and with my conditions.
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