Lately I've been reflecting back on the mistakes that I've made in my life especially in when it comes to the men. I have dated quite a few guys in my day but there are a few of them that have made quite a lasting impression on me. Needless to say that they are all mindless jerks and I now understand why they are EX's.
Lets start with my first Boyfriend ever.
1.) Justin. I was about 14 when I dated him. I fell head over heals for him. I was introduced to him by a friend of my Mothers his name was Tony. I was staying the night at Tony's house with his wife Shannon and Justin had just stopped by to see Tony. Well when i first met him, I though he was cute. Well I told Tony and he told Justin and that night we started dating. I should of know right off the bat that the was going to be trouble when we started making out the first night we started dating. About a week later we went on our first and only date. He took me to dinner at the placed that he worked at as a Dishwasher. I was super sick that night and almost didnt go. He had the all you can eat Walleyed pike and I had the chicken soup, and then he took me to the movies and we saw some weird Alien movie where they had to use dandruff shampoo to slay the giant Alien. Well That night he broke up with me because he said we were moving to fast... Well Duh! Making out on the first night we were together and we barely knew each other.. spells disaster. Well anyhow we got back together about a week later when we talked things over. Things were good for a few weeks and then they all fell apart when he cheated on me with my best friend. He cheated on me ALOT! He date another friend of mine named Carrie and that did not make me happy at all. Well things finally came to a head one day about a few weeks after we had gotten back together for like the 5th freaking time. I remember it well. My Mom had gotten married like two weeks before hand and Justin's Dad had gone into the hospital and Justin had gone to stay with a cousin. I hadn't seen him in a few days, when one of my Mom's friends had seen him cheating on me. Well my Mom's friend told me about it and Given Justin's past history of cheating, I believed it, So that night he called me and I asked him out right "So Justin how's your other Girlfriend doing?". Naturally being the lying jerk that he was he denied it and we got into a huge fight and broke up for the last time. I took a glass bear that he had given me, walked outside and smashed it to pieces on the sidewalk. I saw him after that but the feelings I had for him were gone, I couldn't trust him.
2.)
Brian. Brian and I had a very interesting relationship because we never really talked anywhere but on the phone and on the internet. I actually met him online in a chat room. Yes you read that right.. in a chat room. I knew he was my age because we had talked via webcam several times. We would talk on the phone almost every night. He was in South Carolina and I was in California. It was nice being with some one without the physical aspect of it all. It was all really good we were really good friends for years even after we broke up. Things kinda boiled over in 2008 when I told him that I was not going to come visit him because my Boyfriend at the time was not comfortable with me going. He vanished after that, I have not heard from him in a long time. I found out later that he was hoping to "Get Lucky" when I came to visit.
3.)
JR. I really never dated JR we kinda had a weird thing.. we were seeing each other but then we weren't at the same time. JR was 26 when I was 18 and he was really really cute! I crushed on him and hard. The point of the matter is is that I wanted this man. It was weird because I even told him that i like him and he knew it. One night I decided to take matters into my own hands and I kissed him.The thing about JR is that he was extremely good at playing head games. He would tell me that he it couldn't work because I was so young and he wouldn't be able to take me out to bars or clubs because i was under 21 and then 2 nights later he would change his tune. One night He and I had a talk. He told me that he didn't want to be with me and that there was no way that it was going to work, so I said okay and accepted my defeat and the fact that this man didn't want me. Well the night before my 19th birthday, My mom, her friend H. and I were drinking. Well I was rubbing H.'s back and had had a few to many shots of Tequila and well you can guess what happened. Well my mom walked in on me and H. and was pissed. My Mother not thinking told JR's friend who was also our friend and in turn JR's friend told him. Well the night of my 19th birthday, JR came over and basically screamed at me because I had slept with some one else. All I could keep thinking was "Why are you so pissed off? You were the one who told me that you didn't want to be with me because I was to young for you." He told me that night that he never wanted to speak to me again and that I was to have no contact with him what so ever until he talked to me first and that was the end of that. His head games should of been my first clue. My second clue should of been something he told one of my Mother's dim witted boyfriends one time, which I will not repeat here.
4.)
Jason. The egotistical, sex obsessed, gambling addicted, CONTROL FREAK! Jason dated for so little a time that I actually forgot his last name. I met Jason when I was working at Cracker Barrel in Fort Myers, FL. Jason was a customer and he was really cute. Well the first time I met him I was checking him out at the counter. Well I thought it would be a good Idea to leave my Number on the back of the receipt. Well when he went to walk out without it I stopped him and told him that all customer that pay with credit card need to take their receipts, well he bought it. I Guess he must have noticed my number on the back and said something to one of his friends because he called the Store and asked for my number again because one of his friends had accidentally ripped the receipt. I gave him my number and later that week he called me and went on our first date. We went to the movies and didn't even watch the movie, we spent most of the time making out. Anyways at this time I only had a prepaid phone because it was really all that i could afford at the time, well frequently i would run out of minutes and He would not be able to get a-hold of me and this would make him upset. Well we had been dating about two weeks when Valentines day came round. As a Valentines Day gift Jason actually bought me a Cell phone. Of course I knew at the time that this phone that his name was on the bill for was so that he could get ahold of me when he wanted. Anyways I found out that he had one of the dirtiest minds ever, Jason was always asking me if I wanted to try this new sexual position or this new sexual trick and most of them were just things that i was not comfortable with. We started to fight alot and he would get upset if I didn't answer my phone or if he could not reach me. Finally I just broke it off because it was getting to much. He basically thought that he was King shit. I'm not going to lie the sex was good but that's about it.
And last but not least #5)
I'm going to call him H. You will remember H. from guy number 3, He was the one I slept with when I was kinda seeing JR. Well we ended up dating some time after I had gotten ride of Jason's dumb ass. This relationship was toxic from the start. We started out just sleeping in the same bed because I had gotten tired of sleeping on the floor at my Step-dad's. Well we eventually started literally sleeping together and things were going really really good. Well then the drugs started and he started to change. He told me once that I didn't know what love was and in all actuality I did. I can honestly say that I did love him and I fell for him hard, I think that the was the reason that I stayed, even after he sold my Laptop for drugs. I felt like I could help him get through the drug addiction (I suspect that he sold my a camera of mine as well for drugs but that i will never know). We started fighting alot after I started spending alot of time over at his place and eventually moved in. He started using drugs more and things got worse. We spent more time screaming at each other then talking. I finally left. I tried to mend things when he moved back into my step-dad's, but to no avail. I ended up having a psychotic breakdown because things were so bad and he was seeing other women and I just couldn't take it because I did still love him. Finally I went away. I have not seen him since.
In conclusion, I knew that all these guys were all trouble when I first met all of them. All of them had fatal flaws that I chose to ignore when entering into some sort of relationship with them. I'm not saying that I dont have blame for the way some of them turned out because I did. The point is that these guys have left some sort of impression on me and have affected the relationships that I have had after them. I knew that they would all hurt me in some way shape or form. I loved a few of them, more then I think they loved me if they loved me at all.
Things are better in my life now, I have an amazing Husband who care's for me and treat's me like I'm a princess and even though he drives me f-ing crazy ALLOT and we both get on each others nerves, we work things out and we still love each other. Well that's all for now folks!
Love
Christiania
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