Loss

Today I lost a dear friend. It hurts. It's sad. This amazing woman that I lost was one of the best people I have ever know. She was old enough to be my Mother and was just like one to me. I am literally at a lost for words. This is new territory for me. I have lost a family member before but never a friend. Losing my friend is a bittersweet kinda thing, I'm glad she is no longer suffering and in pain but then I'm angry and upset because this one person that i had gotten so close to is no longer here. My friend was some I could go to talk to about anything with, it was nice to have the advice of someone with more life experince then me who could help guide me an advise me on what to do if my husband was driving me nuts or if my family was being their crazy selves.

I feel for her daughter. I feel for her Grandson's who only got to know her for a short time, I feel for her twin grandson's who will never truly know what an amazing woman of God she was, or how much she loved them, or how wise and caring she was. As I sit here typing this I reflect back on all the fun times we had and how much she taught me. She taught me how to cook better, she taught about keeping house, she taught me so much. I remember that she loved her cats with all her heart and soul, she used to take care of all the neighborhood cats that were in the area. I remember one time her cat had kittens and was not taking care of them properly so she and I would stay up and hand feed with syringe the kittens. I remember sitting on her back porch with her drinking a coke and just talking for hours about everything. I remember her cooking and the different things she would make. I remember her comforting me when I had my first miscarriage. So many memories of good times that were had and wont ever be forgotten. My one regret is that I didn't visit her after I moved away, things had gotten so hectic at work that I just never made the time.

Tonight is a sullen kinda night. It's been raining all day and it has crossed over into tonight, guess its fitting for the melancholy mood that I am in.Tonight there will be no sleep for me, because I will be reflecting on things and keeping memories of my friend close and etched always into my heart.

R.I.P A.H.F August 8,2013
Your family and friends will always find comfort in the fact that you are looking down upon us all from heaven and interceding on our behalf when we need it most. Tonight our thoughts are with with those you left behind. We love and miss you, you amazing woman of God! P.S If I find a penny I know it will be from you letting me know that your alright.


Love
Christiania