The Concept Of Death

For a long time now I have been thinking about my own death, this actually is a scary concept for most of us. I am afraid to die, but more afraid of how it will happen. I hope that when I die it is in my bed at home right next to my husband who also has also died, I know that sounds a bit like the "The Notebook" and you would be right. When I was young I never even thought to much about death and the consequences that come along with it. When we die we leave so much behind, our family, our friends, our possessions, past dues bills, bank accounts, and a million other little things. No matter what we thought we have done to prepare we always leave some sort of mess behind. As a parent death scares the living daylights outta me, I worry about the what ifs more then anything. Im 26yrs old and am already thinking about my Will, I understand that accident's happen everyday and that there truly is "1000 Ways To Die".

Before I was a parent I really didn't care how i died or when I died, but Now that I am a Mommy I have Changed my perspective allot. I worry about who will look after my Daughter if something should happen to me and my Husband. I worry about how my Husband will look after my Daughter if I die or vice versa. I worry about if the people I have chosen to care for her in the event of my and my Husbands death are going to want my daughter or be able to take care of her. Unfortunately I know that death is eventually coming at some point but the point is when. Will I die in my sleep next to my Husband when Im 90 yrs old after having lived a full life, or will I die tomorrow in some freak accident. Honestly Im hoping for 90 yrs old even later if God will's it.

Death is one of those unavoidable things, no matter how hard you try eventually you will die and there is not a damn thing you or anyone can do about it. Yes Doctors can bring you back from the brink of death but one day you wont be so lucky. I know that once my time comes I will leave some sad people behind and I am truly sorry for it. Death has been around since time began and is a part of the way things are. We are just a small part of a never ending cycle of life and death.

If you look back through the ages you will most likely see that death is not exactly a new concept. It has been around since time in memoriam. There are hundred if not thousands of paintings depicting death, in wars, from famine, from execution, to thousands of other ways.

As Human's we find death a scary concept because it's unknown to us what happens when we move from this life into the next. Do we just end up in our dirt covered graves as life less shells? Does are soul really pass on from this life to the next? Do we transcend to some higher plane of existence? There are just so many unanswered question's that go unanswered until we die. I guess we wont know what really happens until we actually die and even then its not like we can come back and tell people what happens. Yes there are instances of people coming back from the brink death and saying that they have seen some amazing things but I believe that everyone see something different. What do you think you will see when you pass on?


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Christiania